I am useless
I wonder if I am ever going to change and actually be good for something.
I hear everyone talking about their futures in college
I see everyone getting ready to graduate
I want to graduate
I am useless
I pretend to ignore it, act like there is nothing wrong
I feel ashamed of myself
I touch the very bottom of the abyss
That’s how low my life is
I woke around 2:30 a.m. to the sounds of my parents screaming at each other behind their bedroom door. I slid out of bed to see what their fighting was about.
When I opened their door I saw my mom on the far side of the bed and my dad near the door. I smelled alcohol on his breath. I asked him to quiet down so I could sleep, but he ignored me and continued his tirade at my mom. He wanted money to go out and buy beer.
My Time in POPS
I came to high school from El Salvador and had never seen a group like this.
A group that shared with others about their past
A place where people reminisce
And see how the time flies fast.
The value of what people say
And the experiences that people share
Have emotions that weigh every day
And sometimes they are just hard to declare.
Grateful
Father God who is up in the heavens, I come to You today to ask for forgiveness. I’ve made choices and said many things that I wish I’d never done. If only there was a way to undo those decisions I’ve made, but I thank You God for keeping me here. There are many people out in the world who made decisions like me and lost their way. I thank You for keeping me alive all this time when there were times in life I could’ve been dead or lost.
